My motivation, is none. I don't care. You made sure to that after you started "stupid drama" with me when I agreed with you about van. Funny how you're now starting a server that contains none of that. When you seem to be thee biggest causes of it. And no it's not drawn to you because you are a women, get over yourself. Ana and Babypeon off the top of my head (yes there was a baby on this server before you) are respected on this game, regardless of their skill level. And drama isn't heavily drawn to them as it is you.
And you of all people should appreciate a leap of faith. The amount of trying to force your religion onto people you've done should suggest that since it heavily relies on that.